Hi (:
Its me again, Murnie.
I got no ideas what to elaborate in today's post but nevermind.
A simple and short post about yesterday and today will do. Okay great, here it goes.
Yesterday - Boyfriend came to my house early in th morning right after he had his predawn meal. When he reached my house, i was asleep. I didnt woke up fr my predawn meal. & sooo i felt like not fasting, sheeesh. Mum went off to send both sister to school early in the morning.
Its me again, Murnie.
I got no ideas what to elaborate in today's post but nevermind.
A simple and short post about yesterday and today will do. Okay great, here it goes.
Yesterday - Boyfriend came to my house early in th morning right after he had his predawn meal. When he reached my house, i was asleep. I didnt woke up fr my predawn meal. & sooo i felt like not fasting, sheeesh. Mum went off to send both sister to school early in the morning.
So left me, ayie, sister & sister bf,wira. After which i woke up at 9am but i went back to sleep at 1pm and woke up at 4pm this time, mum was th one who woke me up. Mum scolded me fr waking up late sbb rumah murnie lupa nk kemas~ sheesh.
Boyfriend bought fr me food at the nearest kopitiam, thanks alot. Yadayada, then uncle went to set the lampu 'kelap-kelip' outside th house. Boyfriend was busy watching yog at channel five. I lend my helping hand to uncle & now it looks pretty nice:D Raya jgn lupa dtg umah murni, hahah.
Untuk tgk lampu kelap kelip je, ahahha kidding. Around 8pm, boyfriend headed back home. I went to accompany boyfriend to th mrt station. & while tht i went to withdraw money at the atm machine. Then make my way home alone. Hurhur~ Boyfriend is safely back at home by nine.
Today - Bf came dwn to my house again at 6.30am. Fetch boyfriend under my voideck. It was so damn scary to see not a single person under th block. Bf ask me to fetch him but i went dwn far way too early, so my fault fr going dwn early. hah. Oh! i wasnt asleep yet.
Today - Bf came dwn to my house again at 6.30am. Fetch boyfriend under my voideck. It was so damn scary to see not a single person under th block. Bf ask me to fetch him but i went dwn far way too early, so my fault fr going dwn early. hah. Oh! i wasnt asleep yet.
I was still fresh tht i couldnt even shut my eyes. I went online on facebook, youtube, took a shower & watch dvd ; syurga cinta. I love this movie so fucking much. I can cry cry cry cry cry evrytime i watch it. Heee~ So watched it, makan sahur then have to wait fr bf coz dh janji tknak tidur dulu so jyeah.
Then bf dtg tros tidur, anyway bf kena kacau lagi bila kt my house * sigh. Tawaqal bnyk2 kay? Then woke up around 1pm. Hmm, mum ask me to accompany her to the hardware to bought wet paint fr the wall. None of the colours impress us, infact the colour that mum wants tkder. hmm~ then mum, bf all teman me go saloon. Little sister went to cut her hair short ; concave. Betol tk spelling? haah.
Then bf dtg tros tidur, anyway bf kena kacau lagi bila kt my house * sigh. Tawaqal bnyk2 kay? Then woke up around 1pm. Hmm, mum ask me to accompany her to the hardware to bought wet paint fr the wall. None of the colours impress us, infact the colour that mum wants tkder. hmm~ then mum, bf all teman me go saloon. Little sister went to cut her hair short ; concave. Betol tk spelling? haah.
She looks cute & adorable please. Haaa~ Then i did rebonding fr only $108. Its loreal or shiseido im not so sure but it is one of this product. The fragrant is so nice, i like :D & I love my hair, its so soft now. :D from 1plusPM till 6pm please, so long.
But i really like their service. Boyfriend teman me all th way, mum and sis went home first sebab kan lama, kesian mama kita nanti kena tunggu lama. Bf also wanted to higlight there nanti after his second last reporting which only cost him $40. Hurhur, worth it huh.
Then, me and bf went to buy food at the kopitiam and went home. Around 7pluspm right after magrib je mama nak gi ikea pt queensway so dah siap semua. I ask bf to ekot skali tgk jam dah pukol 8pm, hais. So pt queensway bf pon tahan cab and balek umah. Mum bought frames, Mirros, Boxes, pots, beautiful tissues fr hari raya. Haaa~ Ade lagi but tk tau how to translate. hahaha!
k takpe, then we went to fetch big sister pulak pt her workplace & home sweet home. Congrats to singapore football player fr winning tonight match, im so proud of them. Hurhurhur. & now, im so freaking bored. Sigh* I would really like to sleep now hmm but i cant. Im out of words, take care peeps.
Oh wait, tml will be going out with bf to idk where but mybe to town to watch a movie ; Step up3D. Hooraay~ I love modern dance :D I miss my T.S.A & Energize crews, i miss my all juniors, i miss my all seniors & mostly my dearest instructer mr ben and mr ken, oh im missing you so much men~ Hurhur.
And look at these two pics, cute pleeeeeease. Saya geram sgtsgt. Look at the first pics, observe. Spot anytg? Haaha! Just look at ayie's left and right hand. Lambang ape je ehk? Hahaha! kecik kecik dh pandai eh, comeeel nya. Hahaha! The right one pulak, one pipi dia, adoooi. Mcam sinchan tak?Cartoon indonesiaa tuu? Haaa! Lmao~ Gemok eh?! Montel seyh, gendut. Mata dh sepet. Macam anak cina mane ntah. Hahaha! Arggh CUTE! Mulut dh la ternganga sampai skg dia habit mulut slaluu terbukak, ahaha! kan you kan? :D
Oh wait, tml will be going out with bf to idk where but mybe to town to watch a movie ; Step up3D. Hooraay~ I love modern dance :D I miss my T.S.A & Energize crews, i miss my all juniors, i miss my all seniors & mostly my dearest instructer mr ben and mr ken, oh im missing you so much men~ Hurhur.
And look at these two pics, cute pleeeeeease. Saya geram sgtsgt. Look at the first pics, observe. Spot anytg? Haaha! Just look at ayie's left and right hand. Lambang ape je ehk? Hahaha! kecik kecik dh pandai eh, comeeel nya. Hahaha! The right one pulak, one pipi dia, adoooi. Mcam sinchan tak?Cartoon indonesiaa tuu? Haaa! Lmao~ Gemok eh?! Montel seyh, gendut. Mata dh sepet. Macam anak cina mane ntah. Hahaha! Arggh CUTE! Mulut dh la ternganga sampai skg dia habit mulut slaluu terbukak, ahaha! kan you kan? :D
Okaylaaaa, Im about to sign out but before i go, alittle short msg fr you, my lovely cute little boyfriend.
You may have done things tht i dislike you to do. You may hurt me so deep. You may disappoint me fr so many times, but i just want you to know no matter what happens the ties will always remains togetha as one. Im sorry if ive change. Change fr the good to bad.
Now you feel how it feels th last time when u did those things to me. I didnt mean to hold grudges or took revenge on you. You told me to change & ive change. Unfortunately, im becoming bad. Becoming someone who is not me. Im not the type of person who gets mad easily, who will stand up to face the reality. Used to be so nice spoken. Used to be so polite towards people.
& most importantly who used to be well mannered towards any person. Ive never talk to my love ones like how i talk to you when we are not in good terms. I gt influenced by your characteristic, im sorry to say tht. I myself realised tht ive change. Im becoming a bad girl.
Not to say what, but i can see fr myself tht i used to be th kuai kuai girl. Always look down when i gt a scolding or smthg. Will shut my mouth and just learn from th mistake, be it mine or not but i will still gve in. But i am not the old murni i used to know. Im not trying to say tht when im with you, ive totally chage into a bad person. Partly mybe because of you, yes.
The one who use to spout out harsh words when we fought.. Until the day i talk to myself, i cant be like this, i cant let people talk to me in this manner. I have to be strong, i have to fight back. Fight fr my right. Fight fr my self respect. And when i dare to do those thing, which is happening now.
You get offended, you gt disappointed, you gt angry, you feel neglected, you scloded me fr doing all this. Infact you were th one who wants me to change. And when ive already change, youre not happy bout it. You told me, its your turn to feel it.
Now you feel how i feel when th last time when u did these things to me.
Its horrible isnt? But i am here to tell you again tht i repeat, i am not trying to have a revenge on you or still hold any grudges on you INFACT i thought it was you who wanted me to change so much? & when i did, why is it you dislike me so much fr chnging this way? You knw what? when i was with you, i was still a girl, who is still the soft kind hearted, who is always nice to you but somehow youve cheated my feelings, yet im still standing strong, still loving you wholeheartedly.
You still dont appreciate me fr who i am. You dont appreciate th way i care fr you. You dont appreciate my way of treating you & mostly, you took advantage on me when i was a nice girl. Dont tell me, you want me to change into much more nicer person? How? being th perfect girl fr you? How cn tht be? When i was th nice gal, you dnt show ur appreciation to me. Whats more being an angel?
I cannot imagine tht. If really you wanted me to change fr the good, why dont you appreciate me when i was nice to you last time? Now u want th old me, you want me to change. I am confused. I can still undersntd how you feel because i was in tht situation last time. How terrible it can be isnt? Please thanked god ure lucky to have sucha nice girl. Okay, now i admit. I admit, when u ask me to chnge. This is a stupid question if i were to ask you how do you want me to change? fr th good or th bad isnt? Mane ade orang mohon suruh berubah then drg berubah jadi nakal kan? Macam mak kita sendri, drg suruh kita ubah, kita ubah.
I cannot imagine tht. If really you wanted me to change fr the good, why dont you appreciate me when i was nice to you last time? Now u want th old me, you want me to change. I am confused. I can still undersntd how you feel because i was in tht situation last time. How terrible it can be isnt? Please thanked god ure lucky to have sucha nice girl. Okay, now i admit. I admit, when u ask me to chnge. This is a stupid question if i were to ask you how do you want me to change? fr th good or th bad isnt? Mane ade orang mohon suruh berubah then drg berubah jadi nakal kan? Macam mak kita sendri, drg suruh kita ubah, kita ubah.
Tapi fr defiinately fr the best kan? Tu laaa. Bila dia suruh murni berubah, the first thing came acroos my mind was, play the games he played before. Like someone gave me an idea. I thanked god, you realise it now bf. I just want you to feel how it feels when your feelings gt cheated by someone.
I knw ive been playing games with you now, th games tht you played with me last time. Now you feel it. I just want you to learn your lesson dear. I dont hold any grudges with u nor any hard feelings towards you. No baby, now I can promie you tht i will be like th old murnie like i used to be because me myself find it awkward and uncomfortable behaving and treating people this way. This is so not me. I must change, fr the better. Now both of us know how it feels, lets not do it again.
We both have to learn our mistake. We shall never make it happen again. Lets end evrytg now. Sooner or later, evrytg will be okay. It takes time. Hopefully, you will change and so do i. I love you boyfriend. Sorry fr evyrtg tht ive done towards you. Il try to my best to be th old murnie. I will. Phew, Period.
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