It me peoples, Murnie ameera.
I know its late now, but i just woke up from my sleep.
i was asleep at around 10plusPM and woke up at 1am.
I was a little tired and so i went to sleep early.
Hmm, okay i lied. The truth is, I cried so bad infront of bf when he was at my house just now due to some problems we're facing.
I got the habit of crying & minutes or hours later i will feel sleepy because of the pains. So jyeah :'D
Bf texted me while i was asleep at around 12plusAM, telling me tht he update this blog & ask me to drop by and so i did an hour later.
Went to th living room and sat infront of the com, surf to this blog site.
Played the music video he recorded earlier on.
Its true tht the song really means alot. Im sorry but i cried again upon hearing the part on 2:40 onwards.
I am not sure why but maybe the part
''Maafkan daku Jika salahku, Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu, Aku tahu betapa pahit Mu menerima sejarah hidupku'' really gt to do with the problems we had.
I can forgive you fr evrything but i can never forget evry single thing.
Im sorry baby if i was a little too carried away, u wont never understand how it feels. Perhaps.

You know what? when once you told me about your past history, i admit i was real disappointed on you. Then again i thought i shouldn't get mad over it, but now i know everything is affecting.
The times when you played behind my back, i lost the trust on you.
I tried my best to gave back all th trust to you slowly but then again, things happen repeated times which makes me lost all the trust fr you. I know i am a bad girlfriend who don't trust his own boyfriend. I repeat, you wont understand how it feels. I knw you expect me to frget evrytg in a click of an eye but im not the type of person.
Firstly, im sorry if im being harsh here. How would you feel when someone disobey you? what would you feel when someone played behind your back? what would you feel if someone flirt around with you & you yourself went to flirt back, entertain this someone till he or she satisfied? you gain nothing but the person instead. You wont realised until theres someone to correct your mistake. After knowing tht you lost the trust u need from someone but you still have th guts to disappoint him or her? how would you feel? He or she went out without your permission, oh maybe that's sound so fine but what if you found out he or she was drunk on tht particular day? Worst still, he lied to you when you ask his or her whereabouts.
Did evry of these affect you? Mybe yes nor mybe no. But im here to tell you, i am far way too disappointed cos his history is affecting me. Whats more he or she flirts when he or she is taken. If he or she can do this in his or her past time, why cant she or he do it again now? True, sigh. Okay, im sorry. Enough of it. Its just affecting me too much. Im sorry if you hate me fr doing this. Boyfriend, only you knw what you did to me and you know i can never frgt bout it. But i believe times will heal evrything.
For now, i know i shudnt have drag th matter fr quiet a long time. Its time fr me to settle ddown and do some reflcetion. Evryone deserve a second chance. I know uve been trying so hard to gain the trust you need so much frm me & bby, i believe you will change, hopefully fr th best. You've been togetha with me, so theres a possibilty tht nothing happens during th time within. That explains. I can see th changes in you, only tht ive yet to get over tht matter. Sorry if i took so long to forgt about it. I just wanna thanked you fr being loyal to me all these while despite all the flirts. Im out of words fr now. Im sorry once again. Dont worry, i will try to change as well. I frgve you fr evrytg & i love you boyfriend. Please change.

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