Hi :'/
Im still not back to myself.
I really miss my bf so much.. I dont knw what to say.
Really, i was in th mood to blog but its just tht my mind has nothing to say.
Knowing th fact tht theres alot actually.
I have no idea on how to settle this. I made a big mistake.
A mistake where i caused evrytg to end up almost to th finishing line.
Everytg change, frm bad to worst.
I dont knw what has gone into me.
Maybe im just unlucky & maybe this has always happen to me.
People do make mistake and people deserve th second third and forth fifth chance?
Or was it just me who take things fr granted.
I know.. I am not th perfect girl on earth.
No ones perfect.. I hate th fact th i have to live my life this way,
cause i know things will never gt back to how it use to be.
Im just plain useless. Or mybe heartless, perhaps.
But.. Why..? Why is all this happening to me?
Im still a girl, Inside life is just killing me.
I have no one in lyfe, everyone started to leave me slowly..
Started to hate me, just where did i went wrong till i was given this punishment..
You knw im truly in love with you fr all possible reasons.
& fr all tht has happen before happen fr a reason.
Whatever has to happen will happen.
Maybe i am cruel to you. I controlled you.
I know i am selfish.. But you never know how much i love you.
I know ive been a bitch at times and i hate myself fr that..
I swear its not easy fr me to be an independent girl.
It pains me so much inside and I just dnt wanna let it out at times.
but when i do, i am real down expecting tht only one to make me back to myself and
fr th one to put all his hopes and trust in me just once more..Give me ways to prove everything.
Im so lost, nothing without you..
I knw im just a regular girl who cud only give you her true love and nothing else.
I know, there's nothing in me tht i cud dream on.. I have nothing..
Nothing...
I really have lots of thing in mind.. Im like stressed with so many things..
Thats whyy, sorry if i seemed to have no mood, mind me..
The most sad part was when you say, you knw one day it will happen.
How long it'l takes, still, end up to be reality one fine day..
I dnt knw how to handle all of this, how to cope with everything, all on my own :'(
Its lyke my happiness just taken away just like that..
The thought of nt being able to hold yr hands, kiss you, hug you, all kills me..It really does..
I knw i have to be strong but this will last fr a while
& after meanwhile, i am back to howw i am right now.
I tried to kept it to myself bt..
Im sory i just have no one to turn to that i have to let it out here talking to just me, cried to my own self, & continues wiping my tears all day long, evrtg on my own..
I dnt have th answers to when will all of this officially stop haunting me..
I just want to be happy, with you..
I hope you'll be fine, have fun with th guys, you will always be in my mind..
Making it hard fr me to prove you.
Cause all you gave me was ur silence & ignorance..
Please give me ways to do so and believe me..
I wanna talk to you but all my calls were nt even pick up by you.
& th hurt part was when u get irritated by my calls and
there u are started to reject my all calls..
Whereas none of it you answered.
What is all of this? Someone tell me :'(
Its just hard.. I still love you kay, so much..
Dnt go missing frm me, that'll honestly break my heart even more..
Youre perfect just th way you are & theres nothing wrong with you..
You have always given me yor best and have showed me so much of love..
Thanks a million fr all tht you have done..
I love you but i miss you more right now! :'(
As much as im glad looking at yr msgs, im upset too.
I hope things will be fine fr both of us.. Ayie...
Im so sorry if i still irritate you with my text n calls,
but all i want you to knw is tht no matter wat happens,
i wont move on with any other guy n that's what Ive promise myself n i think you remember tht, dont you?
Despite the time off lasttyme you knw deep inside i love you..
I dnt knw how many times ive been typing n saying this bloody same sentence to you..
But i just don't know why..
Its just you dt i choose n wanna be with you..
& Darling, can you even remember that i told you I'm gonna need you most at this time..
But i just want you to have fun. Just want to understand you.
Tell me more what im supposed to do n change Kay? ;'/
I really wonder if you do think of me like how i think of you..
Almost every minute,
I wonder what life would be without you.. You're not a want anymore..
You're a need now..
My world revolves around you, I love you.. Love me back once small will you? :'(
I'm dying at home with the heart that misses you and the damn throat and my head & boredom and all shit..
Good morning, have a nice day, I love you & I miss you lots. Keep in mind
*HuugssKisses* you're everything that i need, my love..
Im sorry fr every single thing. Accept me once small back in yr life, will you? Forgive me fr all my wrongdoings please.. Im begging you.. & I am sincere.. :'(
Hope to hear frm you soon.. i really in need of you..
Im still not back to myself.
I really miss my bf so much.. I dont knw what to say.
Really, i was in th mood to blog but its just tht my mind has nothing to say.
Knowing th fact tht theres alot actually.
I have no idea on how to settle this. I made a big mistake.
A mistake where i caused evrytg to end up almost to th finishing line.
Everytg change, frm bad to worst.
I dont knw what has gone into me.
Maybe im just unlucky & maybe this has always happen to me.
People do make mistake and people deserve th second third and forth fifth chance?
Or was it just me who take things fr granted.
I know.. I am not th perfect girl on earth.
No ones perfect.. I hate th fact th i have to live my life this way,
cause i know things will never gt back to how it use to be.
Im just plain useless. Or mybe heartless, perhaps.
But.. Why..? Why is all this happening to me?
Im still a girl, Inside life is just killing me.
I have no one in lyfe, everyone started to leave me slowly..
Started to hate me, just where did i went wrong till i was given this punishment..
You knw im truly in love with you fr all possible reasons.
& fr all tht has happen before happen fr a reason.
Whatever has to happen will happen.
Maybe i am cruel to you. I controlled you.
I know i am selfish.. But you never know how much i love you.
I know ive been a bitch at times and i hate myself fr that..
I swear its not easy fr me to be an independent girl.
It pains me so much inside and I just dnt wanna let it out at times.
but when i do, i am real down expecting tht only one to make me back to myself and
fr th one to put all his hopes and trust in me just once more..Give me ways to prove everything.
Im so lost, nothing without you..
I knw im just a regular girl who cud only give you her true love and nothing else.
I know, there's nothing in me tht i cud dream on.. I have nothing..
Nothing...
I really have lots of thing in mind.. Im like stressed with so many things..
Thats whyy, sorry if i seemed to have no mood, mind me..
The most sad part was when you say, you knw one day it will happen.
How long it'l takes, still, end up to be reality one fine day..
I dnt knw how to handle all of this, how to cope with everything, all on my own :'(
Its lyke my happiness just taken away just like that..
The thought of nt being able to hold yr hands, kiss you, hug you, all kills me..It really does..
I knw i have to be strong but this will last fr a while
& after meanwhile, i am back to howw i am right now.
I tried to kept it to myself bt..
Im sory i just have no one to turn to that i have to let it out here talking to just me, cried to my own self, & continues wiping my tears all day long, evrtg on my own..
I dnt have th answers to when will all of this officially stop haunting me..
I just want to be happy, with you..
I hope you'll be fine, have fun with th guys, you will always be in my mind..
Making it hard fr me to prove you.
Cause all you gave me was ur silence & ignorance..
Please give me ways to do so and believe me..
I wanna talk to you but all my calls were nt even pick up by you.
& th hurt part was when u get irritated by my calls and
there u are started to reject my all calls..
Whereas none of it you answered.
What is all of this? Someone tell me :'(
Its just hard.. I still love you kay, so much..
Dnt go missing frm me, that'll honestly break my heart even more..
Youre perfect just th way you are & theres nothing wrong with you..
You have always given me yor best and have showed me so much of love..
Thanks a million fr all tht you have done..
I love you but i miss you more right now! :'(
As much as im glad looking at yr msgs, im upset too.
I hope things will be fine fr both of us.. Ayie...
Im so sorry if i still irritate you with my text n calls,
but all i want you to knw is tht no matter wat happens,
i wont move on with any other guy n that's what Ive promise myself n i think you remember tht, dont you?
Despite the time off lasttyme you knw deep inside i love you..
I dnt knw how many times ive been typing n saying this bloody same sentence to you..
But i just don't know why..
Its just you dt i choose n wanna be with you..
& Darling, can you even remember that i told you I'm gonna need you most at this time..
But i just want you to have fun. Just want to understand you.
Tell me more what im supposed to do n change Kay? ;'/
I really wonder if you do think of me like how i think of you..
Almost every minute,
I wonder what life would be without you.. You're not a want anymore..
You're a need now..
My world revolves around you, I love you.. Love me back once small will you? :'(
I'm dying at home with the heart that misses you and the damn throat and my head & boredom and all shit..
Good morning, have a nice day, I love you & I miss you lots. Keep in mind
*HuugssKisses* you're everything that i need, my love..
Im sorry fr every single thing. Accept me once small back in yr life, will you? Forgive me fr all my wrongdoings please.. Im begging you.. & I am sincere.. :'(
Hope to hear frm you soon.. i really in need of you..
Labels: I have no choice but to let it out here sorry..
